alone, at last . . .

Well, for the first time in a month, I am alone with my 2 children. Okay, that is not completely true. While my mom was here I was only with the kids every so often. Then during the one day that we had between company I was semi-alone. However I did have Amber come over in the evening, and I have as of yet had to put both of them to bed by myself. Of course, Davy doesn't really go to bed yet. He wakes and sleeps when he wants, usually going down for the night around 11. He kind of has a routine, but not a schedule. You know?

So, here I am alone. Just with my kids. A very cranky 2 year old is being pacified with Dora for the first time today. She got up at 4 a.m. today, fell asleep at 8:30 for a little while and then refused to nap. She is going to bed after Dora and a bath. She has been so whiny. Today has been full of "Mommy, mommy, mommy!!!!!" In that little voice that could make the most patient person want to pull their own hair and scream! And please, no "I told you so!" comments. I can't handle that right now. I'm just glad that Davy is snoozing and I actually have time to do something like this. Even though I'm sure that the kitchen floor could use some mopping, I'm not doing it! I'm on strike!

I'm alone, and that is what I wanted, right? To have all my company leave and let life settle? But that means facing reality. No more meals out all the time, or pizza in, paid for by in-laws. No more extra set of arms to soothe cranky little ones. No more people loading the dishwasher or washing a squirmy kid. No more help with laundry, etc. But I can do this, right? I'm doing alright. And I'm glad that my church is kind enough to bring me some meals this week. Even if they are not what I would normally eat, I didn't have to make them, and they are sustenance! I'm alone. And even though I have my precious ones, I have been addicted to friends and family and now I'm in withdrawal. Where are my friends tonight? Eating out at Avanzare. We won't go there. . .